Envious or Inspired?

“If you want to get rich then envy is a negative vibe to have.”

I recall settling in a state with two mixed settlements; the CITY and then the OUTSKIRTS. I had to settle in the outskirts because financially it was impossible to live in the city. So as much as possible most of my trips were the outskirt route to City and then City route to Outskirt.

I drove a 1995 Toyota Camry. This was an average car when you considered that it was a fairly old car that had aged well but still going strong. The outskirt’s settlement were for those that were middle class and down. So while in the outskirts, my car was cool. But in the city I felt different. Every time I was horned at, I assumed that the car behind me was being bullish. This happened often because keeping up with the pace of most cars in the city was an almost impossible task. This always got me annoyed. My response to all this…was just to roll down my glass slowly and wave in a gesture tellling them to take a big leap and fly above me.

Then one day I realised that my gestures made no difference. I realised most of the time this gesture even made these city people smile. I noticed that these big cars did honk at themselves too and easily they always gave way to one another more like in a silent mode of respect. Curiously, I wondered what it would be like to be honked at by a car of equal might? No difference, I guess or may be? May be I could find out some day or may be not? My feelings at that moment became different and lifting. I felt a little trudge of motivation and inspiration. Then I realized, “it was all made up in the mind.”

This means I could get honked at as much as possible and with no complaints glide over. Then wait patiently to get inspired. I could smile, look into the car that pushes past me and muse over how I could be inspired. If I saw a young lady drive past , then I could say “Wooww…she must have worked so hard and gotten herself a great job” or “Woooww…she must be doing a business that profits her”. Same thinking again when I see an elderly lady, man or a young guy my age driving past me. What did they do right? What are they doing right? I can learn from their acts if only I knew it. I ignore thoughts telling me, they might not deserve the wealth they have or that they did not work as hard for it.

It could be inherited wealth, may be. Rather I allow thought of how human they are with such achievements over-power my thoughts. Now my new-found-thoughts could all be a lie but an inspiring one!

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